Times were different and hard, but was love stronger?

Dear S_____

How are you?  I am fine.
The weathers good.
My new job is good, old man B_____ says soon I will get raise then you and little Paulie can come be here
with me.  I will start looking for bigger room to rent. I need to save some to put up front I plan to bring
lunch to save money bread is cheap at bakery on corner. I am okay here for while rooming with Bob and Roy.  Not for you and Paulie, no
room to breath or private privy.
Chicagos not bad I think we will get on swell.
I just miss you and Paulie so much life will be better here.  No good farming any more.
Keep writing.
Love you and Paulie.
Love P_______

Did you every have to make up your mind, to move on or ....

L.

I know I owe you an answer and I want to answer you with a yes...I do, I really do..but I can't, I just can't.
I love you so much but I know that if we are together we will tear each other up into little pieces.  And even as I write this, I no by saying no that I am tearing my own heart into a million pieces..

Oh L....., what should I do?  I feel as if I will die, no, no...I feel like I will never die, just hurt forever.

I'm so sorry, please believe me that I do love you.

With all my heart, whats left of it.
M.